All the cuddles

I’m solo parenting at the moment and I can’t get anything done for the cuddles. I know, poor me right? But it actually makes life somewhat difficult. See my son knows that if he wants my attention, all he has to do is ask for a cuddle. I can’t say no to that shit. I always want a cuddle. When he gives me a two second hug thinking it’ll suffice and then tries to run away, I’m like hell no kid. I want a koala cuddle (arms and legs all wrapped around, whole body contact.) Problem is though, because I am the only parent here at the moment, he is getting half the attention he is used to. It’s probably less than half in fact, cos I’m the one doing all the dishes and the laundry and the lunchboxes and dinner. So to get the attention he wants, he calls for a cuddle. Constantly. 

When I’m getting up out of bed, having literally left where we were sleeping side by side for the entire night, and putting on my slippers and a jumper, he calls for a cuddle. He jumps on my back and tells me the train has to leave the station. I walk a few steps, then he swings around, gets his feet on the ground in front of me, burrows under my t-shirt, stands on my slippers and wraps his freezing little hands on my toasty-just-out-of-bed torso. It’s bloody torture. Then we waddle to the kitchen to get him something to eat. Good thing I’ve been working on my strength, cos my back would be fucked otherwise. Pretty cute though, ey?

You know what is not cute however? The nipple grabs! He wants to touch and hold and squeeze my boobs constantly. I’m talking alllllllll the time. It is so weird and annoying and uncomfortable. And yes, I cannot tell you how many times we have talked about body autonomy and personal space and private parts, but the instinct is just clearly so strong. He woke up this morning and rolled over and started squeezing one nipple, calling it squishy bob and then the other, calling it squishy greg. I mean seriously? Hands off kid! But also I love you to death and you are stupidly gorgeous and please don’t ever feel I would push you away but also stop fucking grabbing my boobs with your cold little mitts!